Ew.

You know, I always want things I can't have. I don't even know when I really want something anymore, or if I want it just because I know I'll never have it. Like there's this guy in one of my classes...and it's not that I like him, but...well I know he could never like me so that's what is attractive about him. Anyway not like he knows I exist. Me. The quiet girl in the back of the room. The one who keeps to herself and lets all the popular kids just snatch her paper off her desk and copy her answers. Just lets them walk all over her. Doesn't tell them how crazy it makes her. Doesn't let them know it really makes her mad that she works for the answers and they just copy them down mindlessly.

I know all of you who know the REAL me are thinking, "I'm sorry, I thought you were describing yourself?" But actually I was. Some of you would be surprised at how differently I act. I have different behaviors for different places. I think Kids' Acting and whenever I'm with Kristin or Julianne are a couple of the rare places where I just act like myself. I wish I could do that more often. Sometimes I really do actually enjoy being myself. As bizarre as that may seem.

Tomorrow is Cabaret. I don't know what I'll get, but God has a plan for me. I trust in him.

You know, I wonder just how many people read this. I have one small request to everyone who reads my diary. Please sign the guestbook, I just want an idea of how many "viewers" I have. I don't care if you say much, just your name is all I really care. I'd appreciate it.

Well, another day gone by, another day wasted.

I'm sorry, please refresh my memory...I thought this whole "life" thing had a point?